Nessa was in a mixture of emotions, she had just finished a job with Markus and she was currently in two minds about it. On one hand they had successfully managed to save loads of little fairies from any further torture. The humans that had captured the fairies were brutally mutilating them by tears their wings of by force. The poor creatures had been through so much, thankfully her and Markus had managed to put a stop to the suffering once and for all. Not to mention she now had a new companion named Arielle. A pretty pink male fairy, who had snuggled himself in her satchel asleep, poor thing had used a lot of his magic on her. Calming her mind after she had ...lost her cool. It had been a long day and she didn't blame him for having a nap. But she didn't know if she would be able to sleep tonight, because on the other hand there were a lot of negative things on her mind.
To start with she had lost control, lost control in a way she had never done. Sure she had a little bit of a temper on her, she knew that. But it mainly resulted in little tantrums or her going ham on an enemy. But this time was different, unlike anything she'd ever known. It was like pure hatred creeping its way out of her body from nowhere, sending her into a fierce spiral of rage and darkness. She wanted to kill. It had felt sickening, disorientating, she didn't feel herself. Where had this dark rage come from? Had it been something born recently, or had in always been inside her. She didn't understand, nothing had significantly changed about her recently, other than joining Fairy Tail. It didn't make sense to attribute this change to that, not this was something else. She needed to find out what it was that happened to her. She felt like her family would be the best people to speak to but at the moment they were all the way back in Magnolia. But then again, was it wise to talk to her Father or Aunty. They had dealt in their fair share of dark things in the past. Perhaps they would blame her joining a guild, maybe they would even force her to leave. To turn away from magic until they could figure out the source of the problem. But what if they never found out. She couldn't leave Fairy Tail now, she had already grown so attached. Maybe, she should just look into herself, and see what she could figure out. Involving them so early on, didn't seem wise.
Then there was Markus, his killing of several of the enemies they had faced tonight. She wasn't sure how to handle it. For one she had never seen someone kill before, And it had been right in front of her. There had been one night where she had witnessed fighting and many people died. But she was hiding in the home with her baby cousin crying in her arms. She hadn't watched, she hadn't even been able to bring herself to look. So that was different, not like she watched Markus earlier. The brutal cold way he had ended that mans life, the chaos alight in his eyes as he did so. It had shaken her. She knew it was for fair reasons, it wasn't for sport or games. Those men were evil, they would've killed them both if he hadn't but. If she had it her way, they all would've been arrested and faced a sentence. Killing them, it was the harshest of sentences, once she wasn't sure it was fair for them to decide. She just didn't know if it was right, not for the men but for Markus to do that to himself. Because from what her Aunty told her, killing a person, it changed you. Remoulded your mindset and not in a good way.
She hoped maybe they would get to talk a little, maybe clear the air somewhat. It felt so tense right now, probably because they both had different stances on the matter. It was pretty obvious when it happened that the dynamic between them was shfited. Nessa didn't like it, she enjoyed Markus's company, she wanted to be able to fight alongside him. But until they talked about what happened, she wasn't sure if they could. They made their way through town, walking in silence. The two of them managed to track down a tavern not far from the forest. They were sore and really needed to just rest. As they made their way into the tavern, she headed straight up to the bar, pulling herself onto a barstool. Before she cleaned up, there was something she reall needed to do first, and that was have a drink. The bartender made his way over to them, eying them cautiously. They weren't exactly the cleanest patrons in the place, covered in dirt and blood. She sighed looking up at the bartender her violet eyes strained from the stress of their ordeal. "Can I get a shot of your strongest liquor? Wait, actually make that two." She added deciding Markus probably would need one to, something to take the edge off. Maybe after that, they could finally talk.
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