Finally Found You!|private|

Rei had been wandering from place to place for about... three... weeks? was that right? She didn't really care how long she was gone... It didn't  feel like her home anymore. Her motivation to keep walking was running out, when she left, she didn't think to bring anything with her. So she had no money, nothing but the clothes on her back.. The sun had already set, and Rei was finding herself alone, in what seemed to be a large public park... the grass looked really green... this seemed like a good place to settle down for the night. she was an easy target for thieves, a young girl out at night on her lonesome. which had happened multiple times only to discover she had nothing. She felt as if there was nothing left inside her, either... 

The hood she wore looked like an old one, the color was tan with a button in the front that connected it together. She was so relieved to have it, since it covered up her scars, and no one could stare or laugh at what they didn't know was there. 

In the silence of the night, with not even any crickets chirping, Rei decided to sit on the park bench for a little while. It was late, but she couldn't sleep. She just pulled her hood more over her head to hide her face from the shadows around her, tucking her knees into her chest and hugging them close to her. She was alone...like she had been every night since she'd left. She couldn't figure out where she belonged, but right now, she felt as if she didn't belong anywhere. She was useless, there was nothing special about her.... she just sat there, shivering ever so slightly that dark cold night. She felt too drained to cry, the void within her was too large and was sucking up her ability to feel anything positive. She didn't care anymore... She didn't care about being alive, or how she felt, or how starving she was. She just wanted to die, pass away without a trace. Everyone was too full of their own lives to care for someone like her. She put her forehead on her knees, her eye barely open and gray in color. She let her eye water and a single tear slide, before hugging herself for what little comfort it gave, and sitting like that. She didn't move, she just sat there, hoping time would shut her eye and finally fall asleep.

Rei could hear as someone curled their fingers around the top of the park bench, she could hear the rustling of clothing and..fur? It wasn't hair, hair had a different sound to it. The only people she knew that had any sort of fur was the few yokai that were in Black Rose, and she knew it wasn't Neyvahn, he was probably hoping she'd run off and gotten herself killed or killed herself by now. He was half right at least, she wished everything would end. Traveling like she was, she would whither away with time.

Rei Froze after hearing Iza call her name. Her face was still hidden by her hood, but she felt a wave of anxiety rush over her. What was she supposed to do? she couldn't just get up and run, Iza was too fast and she knew she wouldn't just let her run away. And if Iza was here, it meant she must have been looking for her quite some time. which meant...she was worried enough to come looking for her? no, that was impossible. Iza was too busy being a guild master to worry about someone like her, she could barely even call herself a Mage with how she compared to the power of everyone else in the guild. Rei gulped nervously before tucking higher in to herself.

"why...are you here..?" her voice seemed scared anxious and a bit broken, not because she was ill, but because her whole being was falling apart from the inside out

Rei still couldn't find the courage within her to make eye contact with her guildmaster. She pulled her hood back slighly, revealing a bit of her matted pink fading hair. Her usually blue optic was deprived of it's usual ocean color, and instead looked as if it were at the bottom of the ocean, thousands of feet below the surface where not even the light could reach. Nothing but deep dark emptiness, unexplored and terrifying. 

Rei squinted as tears flowed to the surface, and she sniffled. looking down at the grass while her left thumb rubbed up and down her knee nervously. She wanted to run, but.. she had come so far to find her.... she deserved at the very least an explanation. "It all crashed when... I lost my arm..." she started, speaking very softly and shakily. "I can't see straight, and using everything with one arm is... really.. really hard..." she quietly admitted, pausing and taking another nervous gulp as tears started falling from her face again. She recalled the incident remembering how it all happened "Ney was ignoring me...I couldn't figure out why..." she continued, explaining things very much in a summed up way. "I went outside to try and train, but I couldn't even hit the dummy... and then Ney came out, and said some things... and then I said some things... and then we started trying to hurt each other... but... I couldn't even hit him" She paused, biting her lip and wiping her pale face. "He got really angry... and... He told me he..." her heart felt like it had started accelerating as she was barely able to get out her next words. "should've just left me to die.." she buried her head on her knees and cried as quietly as she could to herself. she felt cornered, having to admit what happened to Iza. "He was right, though... if i could have just died that day... I wouldn't be such dead weight like I am now... I've only cause him trouble, I've only ever caused nothing but trouble... everyone is better if i just... disappeared, then.. I wouldn't be such a nuisance to anyone, anymore...that's why...why I left.." 

She had to say the last words while speaking through the lump in her throat. That was why she was out here... waiting for her body to give up on itself and die somewhere no one would find her, they'd eventually all forget... 

Talking about what happened didn't bring her any sort of closure at all, it only reminded her of how Ney spoke when he said those words with such a deep hatred in his voice. she sat and tried to stop herself from crying, waiting to see if Iza had anything to say.