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    Leon Hoffman
    Leon Hoffman

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    Post by Leon Hoffman 30th March 2021, 10:12 pm



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    Will it be easy? No; Worth it? Absolutely



    It was true—Leon was an awful dancer, and he downplayed his embarrassing history with it. For someone who seemed to know his body so well, he could hardly move it to the rhythm and beat of most songs. When someone was unfortunate enough to be his dance partner, he wore this almost-angry expression since he was so focused on not stepping on his partner's feet as well as trying to avoid tripping over his own, but he still failed royally regardless. He even tripped over himself and sprung his ankle once... doing the macarena.

    Needless to say, Leon was incredibly reluctant to accept Percy's offer to dance as his dark past with the activity suddenly came back to memory, but the Dagger was so surprisingly nonchalant and honest about the whole thing that Leon could hardly reject him now. It wasn't like he didn't want to dance with him, but... well, he hurt himself doing the macarena of all things, for goodness sake!

    "Y-Yeah, uhm... I'll... I'll give it a try," Leon begrudgingly replied, obviously apprehensive about what was about to unfold. He was a bold man who didn't shy away from the more embarrassing moments in his life, but when it came to doing things he knew he was awful at in front of the person he'd want to impress the most, his awkwardness skyrocketed. "...we can do whatever you want."

    Leon couldn't muster up any idea of what he wanted, because he was convinced that even the waltz he learned all those years ago had completely vanished from muscle memory. Even though Percy insisted that the point was to have fun and feel good, Leon couldn't escape the weird but suffocating pressure of it all. Maybe he was overthinking this, but as the stage cleared out and invited the crowd in with its casual and fun ambiance, Leon couldn't think of anything else.

    "Alright! Uhh... let's go!" Leon sprung up from his seat with his almost-angry expression, suddenly determined to bite the bullet and suck up the feelings of self-consciousness. He had to hype himself up or else he'd be pink all over. "Dancing! Yup! That's... what we're gonna do! You and me...! Okay!"


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    Percy
    Percy

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    Post by Percy 30th March 2021, 11:30 pm

    Percy just watched him in amused silence for a long moment, knowing full well he was psyching himself up for something he fully expected to be difficult. Percy would know all about that, wouldn't he? It was just weird to see his own past behaviors so blatantly in his normally so confident lover's attitude. Soon enough, it was a little more than he could handle. "pfffft.." he stifled a laugh, grabbing his hand and leading him out into the middle of the gathering young people. The middle was always the best place for someone who didn't want a lot of attention. Being on the edges somehow put more of a target on your movements, though you'd think it'd be the opposite.

    Once in the center, he turned to face Leon. His other hand slipped into Leon's free one so that they stood there with their hands clasped between them. "Stop worrying. You don't even have to move your feet if you don't want to," he said, trying to leech some of the anxiety out of those broad shoulders. He knew there was nothing he could do about that expression until Leon realized it wasn't going to be as bad as he thought, though Percy certainly didn't mind that intense glare and scowl. He'd always favored that aggressive face of his. It still made his heart skip a beat. Nearly all of his expressions were perfect. All except the ones he saw in the middle of the night, the one he'd seen that day--

    "Now just sway with me, okay?" he said, brimming with perkiness and tugging the hands between them side-to-side in an attempt to move his body. Percy's body shifted easily to and fro with the beat. "See? This is basically all there is to it," he said as softly as he could over the music, taking a step closer to the inky-haired man. It was cute to see him so off his game like this. It was like a role reversal. His mismatched gaze aimed up into his face as if to memorize it. Had he ever looked at Leon so intently and contentedly? His eyes were soft and his mouth held the ghost of a smile. He craved these innocent moments, these shining blissful moments. It was like he was trying to make up for a lifetime of missed moments like these, or maybe his mind was unknowingly collecting happiness to use later when despair tried to swallow him. Percy wouldn't be aware of this, though. Lately, he operated mostly on impulse, as if thinking too deeply was dangerous. Honestly, it was.

    Percy didn't seem to notice the pulsing crowd around them, all bobbing, grinding, and otherwise getting lost in the infectious tempo whether they had a partner to push against or not. It might as well be only him and Leon. Without letting go of Leon's hands, Percy did a little spin, bringing Leon's arm up and over his head as he pressed his back into Leon's chest. He wouldn't allow the swaying to stop even as he brought Leon's arms tightly around him from behind. "Well? What do you think? Still want to try the waltz?" he asked as he leaned his head back and closed his eyes.

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    Leon Hoffman
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    Post by Leon Hoffman 31st March 2021, 11:40 pm



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    Will it be easy? No; Worth it? Absolutely



    At first, Leon wasn't really sure what to think about this whole dancing thing when he was dragged to the center of the swarm. The positioning, the movement, the rhytmn—Leon let Percy guide him every step of the way, and he was surprised by how he hadn't royally messed up yet, and that much was obvious from his squinting eyes and pink cheeks. He wanted to grin right now, but he stopped himself, instead of making this still-angry-looking face that was obviously trying to suppress the smile tugging at his lips. Somehow, it was really embarrassing that he was this pleased to be successfully swaying with his boyfriend, and he wanted to continue to delude himself that Percy was oblivious to his self-consciousness.

    Even though they took it slow, Leon continued to look rather ferocious as they swayed, intensely focused on their dancing and making sure he didn't mess up. It wasn't until Percy suddenly spun into him that he felt something different. Something fuzzy.

    As if the swaying wasn't close enough, their bodies pressed into each other even more and filled Leon with familiar warmth that melted away the angry look on his face. The sense of touch really was his love language, and his heart seemed to beat louder and louder as they swayed there in the middle of the crowd. His head was clear and yet so full, the sound of everyone else filling his ears, and yet all he could pay attention to was Percy's soft voice and familiar smell, and the embarrassment and shyness he felt from before shrunk in the shadow of what he was feeling right now. It was like he was having a moment of clarity—the kinds you'd get over the smallest gestures and left you with nothing but immense affection and appreciation. How lucky was he to have someone like Percy in his life?

    "I don't know. I'm going to step on your feet no matter what I do," Leon chuckled, holding Percy while leaning to kiss the rim of his ear. He still had this aggro look on his face, but most of his expressions looked pretty intense no matter how you looked at them. From one angle, it looked like he was about to eat the Dagger alive with that fire in his eyes. Yet, at the same time, the warmth from those flames made him look as if he was staring at the most precious thing in the world. Percy was the only person in his world—without him, he'd have nobody, and he'd be all alone. But moments like these... or rather, all the time he spent with Percy made him care less and less about that fact.


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    Post by Percy 3rd April 2021, 3:07 pm

    Percy chuckled at Leon's words, then a short sigh escaped him and his hands on Leon's arms tightened affectionately. He loved it when Leon kissed his ears. And his neck. And his face. And his mouth... pretty much anywhere, actually. While it was clear that he still wasn't used to receiving affection, he was more than happy to accept it from Leon. Percy knew nothing of love languages, but he knew that his lover was a very touchy man. The closest he really had to having his own love language was buying Leon things, but he wouldn't usually let him, which was annoying but also understandable since Percy didn't like it when people bought him things either. Sometimes he wondered if Leon craved being touched the same way instead. Sometimes it worried him because he knew he wasn't there yet. What if he couldn't provide whatever it was that Leon needed? He thought about that often. There was no book that could teach him the skills he needed for a relationship. He was horrible at flirting and had only recently become more comfortable with slipping his hand into Leon's sometimes. As much as he adored those wolfish gazes, they made him so self-conscious of every move he made that he felt like he couldn't move at all. If only he could frame giving affection back as confidently as he could dancing. It was going to take a lot of communication and work on his part...and practice. It was just getting up the nerve to do it, even if he could fail.

    "Well, that's fine. You seem to be doing great with this, so we can stay right here," Percy grinned, keeping them both in time to the beat with their swaying, minimizing the movement of their feet so Leon wouldn't have to worry. "Thank you for this. I know it's not your thing but it's... really nice." This was all he wanted. Just mindlessly moving to background music with Leon's arms wrapped around him. The warmth at his back was soothing and enticing. As he leaned his head back against Leon and sighed happily, his eyes angled up beyond the strung lights and up into the clear night sky. He couldn't help but feel content. His mind was free to wander, lost in the moment and imagining turning around to kiss Leon in a flash of blissful passion. It'd be nice if he could do that, but he still didn't have the nerve. Perhaps dance was more seductive than he thought, because as he closed his eyes to continue daydreaming, he could only think of things he wished he could do to the sinfully attractive man. Maybe they should cut this short and head back to Leon's house? His body had started to warm up all over.

    But just like that, his blood ran cold. There was a muffled, distant thud, like that of gunpowder. With his mind completely disarmed and his eyes closed, the sound ripped through him like the explosive cannonballs of war. His swaying stopped abruptly and he flinched. His eyes flew open just as the firework exploded into brilliant twinkling colors in the sky and he flinched again. It might as well been a bomb or the slinging of destructive magics against enemies. After that he just stood there, his muscles tensed. He could swear he could feel winter wind in his face, hear the distant sounds of orders being shouted and painful screams, but thankfully his mind rearmed itself and reminded him that it was fireworks. They were at a spring festival and it was just the fireworks they'd advertised for the end. What had he been thinking? As the crowd, some dancing and some pausing to watch, ooh'd and aah'd over the magnificent display of blossom-shaped explosives and vibrant hues, Percy could only stare in stony silence. He didn't flinch anymore, but he desperately wanted to run. The poor young man's heart was racing like a frightened rabbit, but he managed to keep nearly all of that off his face. At least he was angled away from Leon.

    "How pretty," he said in a strained voice, taking a step away from Leon. He pulled his phone from his pocket, pretending he'd gotten some sort of message he hadn't expected. "Ah, crap. I forgot I have an early meeting. I've got to get going," he lied, offering an apologetic smile to the man over his shoulder. "It's kinda important, but I haven't prepared at all. I'm sorry! You stay and enjoy the rest of the show," he said, then turned and walked out of the crowd. His map was already on his screen leading him back to his car, which he was nearly jogging to with his keys already in his hand.

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    Leon Hoffman
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    Post by Leon Hoffman 5th April 2021, 11:07 pm



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    Will it be easy? No; Worth it? Absolutely



    For a while, they continued to sway there amongst the crowd, sliding neatly into place into each others bodies as if they were trying to memorize each other. Dancing definitely wasn't Leon's thing, but he could get down with this whole swaying thing if it was Percy... who else would he dance with? Both of them began to lose themselves in the motion, until Percy suddenly pulled away.

    "Hey..." Leon said huskily, puzzled by the sudden detachment. It wasn't until he heard the distant and yet terribly loud boom in the sky that he realized what was happening—fireworks.

    In an instant, a swarm of eyes fixed onto the dazzling, sparkling colors that fizzled in the atmosphere, filling the sky with this enchanting glow as if it were casting a spell. Seeing all of the different, colorful patterns wash over his gaze brought a certain peace to Leon. Maybe for people who didn't know him well, he seemed fine enough on the outside when it came to his trauma, but he was constantly battling his demons. His world had been one full of darkness for some time now, where even just looking at his prosthetic arm made him feel as if he were at war with himself. Visions of war haunted his dreams at night, and everything even remotely related to his incident seemed to push him over the edge. He found his only relief in Percy; like a ray of light in that sea of darkness. He grasped onto him desperately, but it was also scenes like this that put him at ease. It was things like fireworks that made his heart feel a little lighter.

    Leon was prepared to admire the fireworks with his lover before he suddenly announced that he had to leave—an early meeting or something along those lines. It caught Leon off-guard at first. It hadn't seemed like either of them had even touched the lab ever since they got back from Bellum, and for a good reason too. It just seemed so out of the blue.

    "What? Hey, wait—" Leon tried to catch up to Percy, but the crowd ended up getting in his way. When he managed to weasel his way through, his split-haired lover had already vanished faster than he could've gone if all he was doing was walking. All Leon could do was stand there at the edge of the stage, frowning as he stared off down the dirt path. So much for that.

    . . . . . . . . .

    The day of the picnic and the festival started off and ended off strangely, but it was hardly a one-time thing as Leon has now come to discover. A few days after all of that, something more alarming caught his attention.

    Lately, whenever Leon had tried to hug or touch Percy, he'd always somehow manage to avoid it.  Whether it was some convenient excuse or just wordlessly rejecting it, it was beginning to feel the infancy of their friendship when touching was—compared to now—minimal. Sometimes it felt like Leon was lucky enough to get a kiss, but he knew that something was wrong, just not what. However, before he could properly bring it up, Percy was off on another business trip.

    The trip was about two weeks long, and the two had to settle for phone calls instead of hanging out in person. Knowing that the change wasn't permanent was enough comfort for anyone to adjust to the new way of doing things, but Leon found himself having more and more sleepless nights while Percy was out of town, knowing that he couldn't simply drive over to his place for the physical comfort he desperately relied on. Instead, he'd apprehensively call Percy at inconsistent, late hours for the sound of his voice. Even a text could be enough to put him at ease, but he'd always prefer the real thing. Fortunately, time flew by quickly.

    It was the day of Percy's return, and although Leon insisted on meeting him at the airport or being the first to see him when he got back, somehow that wasn't possible. Either way, he ended up sleeping a couple of hours past noon anyway from his restless night before.

    Later That Day

    Arriving at Percy's place, the last thing Leon expected to hear and see was people. The expression on his face looked as if he was watching the building go up in flames as his eyes glanced over the unfamiliar parked cars and the sound of chatter that bled through those contemporary walls. Stepping up to the door, Leon didn't even bother knocking. What the hell was going on?

    "Percy?—" Leon cracked the door open, but was almost cut off by the shocking sight within. There were real, breathing people in his house right now. It seemed like such a silly thing to be so stunned by considering he was dating Perseus Dagger of all people, but his boyfriend wasn't exactly the most... sociable guy around. Leon didn't recognize a single face in just the one room he stepped into, and the whole event seemed too casual for it to be some sort of business party or something.

    Leon cautiously walked through the room with this wide-eyed look on his face, bumping into some people because he was so bewildered with the fact that the game room was actually being used, but then too shocked by the fact he ran into absolute strangers to even apologize for his unawareness.

    Seriously, what the hell was happening?


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    Post by Percy 6th April 2021, 12:28 am

    The last three weeks had been wrought with discomfort. As much as Percy still maintained that almost frenetic energy and perky outlook, the serene waters of his mind had started to ripple since the night of the fireworks. Being unable to keep much food down devolved into having to sneak and give his body nutrients intravenously, but that was just to keep him alive. His body seemed to be shedding pounds by the day. Every morning he woke up and checked himself, and before long he knew that Leon would notice. He started pulling away before the hint of his ribs started to show where there were once the bountiful curves of lean, toned muscle. His body was so used to Leon's touch that he craved it just as much as the food he ate and rejected, and rejecting Leon was even more unpleasant. Having to press his palm to his chest to keep him at a distance, dodge his outstretched arms, and otherwise lie and make up things to make him too busy were wearing on him. Lying to Leon had been so hard, making up a story about a two-week business trip when he really just hung with Cat around the house felt disgusting, especially knowing how Leon needed him on those bad nights. It wasn't the same on the phone, though he did his best to comfort and convey affection through the speakers. He told himself that it was for the best. Leon was already trudging through the darkness and seemed to be approaching dawn. Throwing him back into darkness with worries about his skinny boyfriend seemed crueler than keeping him at an arm's length.

    Percy had started to drown, though. Left alone with his own thoughts turned the ripples into waves. They crashed against the cliffs of his mind, slowly eroding away the delusions his mind had set up to protect him. He'd wake up soaked in a cold sweat and pawing at his own hands that he swore were stained red. Cat knocking off items on bookshelves made him flinch as if it were gunshots. Taking walks around town would get his mind off of things, as would talking to Leon, but it was so temporary. Problem after problem was mounting up, but there were no solutions in sight. No matter how many hours of the day he thought about it and tried to reason it out, he just went in circles. The deadline was basically up on his project, but every time he went to work on it, he could only stare at it or his hands would shake so bad he couldn't solder a single thing. He needed to solve his eating problem and put on weight before Leon could worry, but nothing would stay down. The nights were long and his mind was starting to return to Bellum when it wandered, but he couldn't address that trauma so he ignored it. Most pressing of all the problems, he had a party coming up that he thought he'd really wanted two months ago, but now his nerves were on edge but it was too late to cancel.

    Two weeks slid by at a frozen snail's pace, and then Dagger staff were arriving to set up catered food, the open bar, and the sound system for music. Some things were rearranged to optimize seating and places of interest for the crowd. His cousin arrived early just to torment him, going on and on about how late Percy was to proper socialite behavior and how small and modest his home was compared to the rest of the family. Some backhanded compliments about how he cleaned up nice for a nerd and how he might have a shot with Lila, the pretty girl that Percy's mom had drunkenly mentioned a few times as who she wished Percy would marry. The girl that his cousin fancied, which was so obvious that someone as dense as Percy caught onto it. He wished he could tell him to just go after Lila because he had no interest in her, but... that was yet another problem he hadn't considered before now. Leon was coming to this party. Leon, his lover, would be in the same building as every young family connection he had was rooting for him and Lila. Because Percy was still very much in the closet and Leon was still very much a secret.

    Speaking of, Lila was next to arrive with proverbial bells on. Percy's denseness and her subtleties combined into the two-toned Dagger completely missing that the beautiful brunette with the emerald eyes had a thing for him. Lila's two brothers were with her, both of whom Percy wasn't fond of. While they were the athletic type like him, they were the bullying kind that had always picked on him for being the more introverted bookish type, making them perfect friends for his cousin. Some of Artemis's friends that he'd met at various parties arrived with their flavor of the week hanging off their arms, ogling Percy's home as if they had finally gained entrance to the King's castle. Dagger Corp employees also filtered in, curious about their elusive boss' house. Sprinkle in the kids of other affluent families that the Daggers knew from business deals and galas, and his house was full of rich snobs raising the rabble levels of his normally quiet home to the point that his head was swimming and it had only just started.

    His only option to survive the party was to act as chill as he'd been a month ago...and drink. Drinking on a very empty stomach was a bad idea, he knew, but what choice did he have? Two shot Percy hit like four shot Percy, so he was quickly feeling limbered up. He schmoosed through the crowd, still feeling like an outsider but playing the part of the man he thought throwing a party would make him. He rustled up crap he remembered about people and asked questions as if he was interested. "How's your grandmother?" "Are you still seeing Amy?" "I thought you were a vodka man!" "Put that down, that's expensive!" "Good work on that plant-based dermal glue!" "Are you still going on about how I beat you in that race?" "Oh, this is my cat, Cat." "Where'd you get that sweater?" "Sure I can teach you to play pool."

    By the time he spotted Leon bumping through the crowd, Percy's glassy eyes widened in alarm even though his heart fluttered excitedly. Even more alarming, Percy had been chatting closely with Lila, an easy grin on his face as he leaned but backside against the pool table beside where she was bent over and trying to aim a cueball. Clutched in his hand was a tumbler of honeyed booze, already nearly empty and his fifth. Unlike the last time Leon had been with him, he'd abandoned the more comfortable, sporty look and was back to his business casual attire consisting of a white dress-shirt tucked into khaki slacks. He was actually wearing the navy sport coat that went with it, though this was more of a conscious decision than another sudden shift in interests. He knew there was no getting out of seeing Leon today and that he'd already been put it off as long as he could pull off. He had to find ways to hide the changes to his body. Slap more duct tape on the leak. The coat would make his shoulders look just as wide and strong as they usually did, and his stylist told him that wearing lighter colors would make his frame appear fuller. Percy needed that right now. Things were starting to fray at the edges of the rope he was rapidly running out of, but he had no more plans for what happened when he reached out and nothing was there to grasp.

    Percy drained the rest of his glass and snagged a new one off of a carried tray. "Eyyyy! Leon!! C'mere!" he called with a broad grin, having to be louder than the frat party noise. He couldn't hide the discomfort in his eyes any more than he could mask the drunken slur in his voice. There were just so many people and he was trying to pretend it was okay. It had to be okay. Maybe now that Leon was here, it'd be okay. If he could keep the gay away. "Haa... why d'ya look so surprised? Forget I invited ya to this?" he asked, wobbly stepping around the curious girl now peeking over his shoulder. His drink was held like a crux, fully intended to keep Leon from being able to grab him without spilling it.

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    Leon Hoffman
    Leon Hoffman

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    Post by Leon Hoffman 7th April 2021, 7:35 pm



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    Will it be easy? No; Worth it? Absolutely



    Amidst Leon's search for Percy, it seemed like he didn't have to do any real searching at all, because hollering over the intense volume of the party was none other than Percy Dagger himself—dressed in all of his unusual but pleasant aesthetic.

    Although Leon was definitely happy to have seen Percy for the first time in weeks, he couldn't help but notice the alcohol in his hand and the slur in his words. The guy was obviously drunk, or at least approaching it very quickly, but why was he drinking so heavily anyway? Leon hadn't seen him touch alcohol since the Singles Night in the capital or wherever. If he had, it was a rare event, but apparently, not too rare since the wobbly Percy seemed to be indulging in it quite generously.

    The loud music, the chatter, the pungent smell of alcohol... it was a lot to take in, and reminded him a lot of the parties his brothers used to go to when he was still with them. There was even this girl that peered over Percy's shoulder that he locked eyes with—ideally, he would've just left and come back until all of this was over, or maybe grab a drink himself and sit on the couch to watch all of this stuff unfold, but he had a bad feeling about all of this. Now that Percy mentioned it, Leon did recall the conversation they had about this party some time ago but seeing it all happen right in front of him just concerned him.

    "Invited? Oh... yeah, yeah... right, so, can I talk to you?" Leon started, looking back over at the girl again, "Outside?"

    He didn't really start off on the right foot when he stepped into this place.


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    Post by Percy 7th April 2021, 9:27 pm

    "Outside?" Percy echoed dumbly, processing it like his brain was filled with thick syrup while Lila, already starting to puff her cheeks out in pouty indignation, reached out to touch Percy's arm. "But you were just about to show me that geometry physics thingy to hit the stripe behind the 8 ball," she protested, but as her hand touched the fabric of his coat, Percy flinched and stepped forward out of range. At least it seemed to be equal opportunity no-touch-Percy time. He didn't seem to want anyone to touch him, not just Leon. "I'll be right back, Lila. Don't worry. Maybe ya can talk to Gabriel over there?" he smiled, pointing to the obnoxious man flanked by Lila's scowling brothers.

    Right. Of course, Leon wanted to talk to him alone. But...Percy really didn't want to. He knew it would be what he'd been avoiding, right? They hadn't seen each other in a couple weeks, it was natural that he'd want a moment of privacy, but he'd have to avoid getting too close again and he knew that wouldn't fly. But he also couldn't really stay in here and speak with him, since anything beyond Leon being his assistant was a very big secret. Why couldn't Leon just enjoy the party and save all this for later? As the two-toned man stumbled his way over to the taller, dark-haired man and then even passed him to head toward his own front door, he tried to seem as if he was the pinnacle of laid-back. The party seemed to be a success, even if Percy wanted to scream. Maybe a moment outside would be nice.

    "Y'know, I just wanted ya to come over so I could show ya some pool moves. I said I would one day and Lila doesn't bite," he continued to speak, trying to seem soberer than he was. Normally, Percy was someone who could suck down an ungodly amount of drinks and seem fine until it hit him all at once. It just dulled his nervous edges until he blacked out somewhere safe later. His tolerance was quite high, as well. He'd hustled many drinking contests this way. But with his weakened, starved body and empty stomach, the poor young man was absolutely hammered already. Definitely more drunk than Leon had ever seen him. His cheeks were already flushed from intoxication, which he thought would make dealing with all of this easier. Maybe it'd been a mistake.

    Things were swimming, but at least his hands weren't dripping red and he couldn't feel the nip of winter's wind on his neck when there wasn't even a breeze. The music and voices were loud, but they weren't explosions and gunshots. All of his anxiety was currently stemming directly from trying to keep Leon from noticing his weight loss, his twisting stomach, and his home being filled to the brim with people he barely knew or outright didn't like making all kinds of noise that wouldn't stop. It was hard to move in there. Hard to breathe. You always had to know what to say and have some sort of shallow banter ready, which he wasn't good at. You couldn't take a step without brushing into someone else...they were all so loud to be saying such meaningless, empty things and none of them were there for him because they liked him (besides Lila).

    Once outside, he walked over to the side of his house without so many windows and pressed his back against the wall. It was loud even out here, but at least it was muffled and distant. He heaved a heavy sigh, taking a sip from his glass before returning it to its shield-like position. Even in the cool spring air, he was burning up. He wanted to take off the blazer, but the whole purpose of wearing it was with him right now. "So, Leeeoon," he drawled, mouth pulling to a crooked grin. It looked like he might start giggling at any second. "Whatcha wanna talk 'bout? We're missin' the fun. I worked really hard t' throw this thing."

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    Post by Leon Hoffman 8th April 2021, 12:05 am



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    So they went outside, but something about Percy's eagerness just annoyed Leon. His sudden drinking, the party, the sensitivity to some things and the iron will for others... it was all just too confusing for Leon, and he knew something was off, but his uncertainty as to what was beginning to take a toll on him.

    "What? Dude, I haven't seen my boyfriend for weeks now, so I kind of want a second alone with him," Leon frowned a little, arms crossed as he looked at the drunken Percy. It might've been unfair to get irritated like that, but Leon wasn't really thinking that hard about his patience (or lack thereof) right now. His lover had returned to him after some time apart, but it didn't really feel like it for some reason. Lately, it felt like they've been more distant than ever before. With a small, begrudging sigh, Leon tried to stop himself from getting upset and unfolded his arms as he started approaching him for one of his bear hugs. "...I missed you, is all."


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    Post by Percy 8th April 2021, 12:44 am

    That certainly made sense, but it was absolutely what he'd been avoiding. The lopsided smile turned to a more uncomfortable one. It was strained. Percy was never very good at hiding his expressions unless he went completely stoic, which was beyond his capabilities right now. And as bad as it felt to again reject Leon's physical affection, he was more panicked about what the man would feel if he let this hug happen. "I missed you, too," he said, and though he meant it, there was an edge in it. As before, he dropped his eyes and put a hand against Leon's chest to stop him from getting too close, his drink remaining between them. To take it a step further, he staggered away from the wall he'd been leaning against and out of range of the embrace, yet he offered no explanation for the action. There was nothing that he wanted more than to be held right now, but it was better for Leon if they didn't.

    He stood there awkwardly by a random bush and without a good sense of balance in the absence of something to lean on. "It was a long two weeks without you. I'm happy t' see you," he quickly added as if he hadn't just ducked his boyfriend's hug. Percy knew this wouldn't work even as he did it. His dumb brain couldn't think of a single useful thing anymore. There weren't any fixes. What was wrong with him? It was all self-destructing! Leon was gonna get mad no matter what he did right now, and the stress had the glass he was white-knuckling trembling. If he avoided it and simply went inside, if he stood here and tried to distract him with verbal affection, even if he came clean... All he could see was upsetting Leon...which was what he was trying to avoid...ugh his head was spinning...

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    Post by Leon Hoffman 8th April 2021, 8:28 pm



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    Again, Leon was rejected. Even after two weeks apart with nothing but their phones connecting them, Percy once again rejected Leon's affection without a single word to explain why. It started happening before he left, and once he was out of town, Leon thought he could look past that weird behavior after a little space was put between them, but it was obvious that this wasn't the case.  

    "What the hell's the problem, huh?" Leon finally barked at him, his patience thinning and his frown sharpening, "You say that, but you aren't acting like it at all! You're obviously avoiding me, and you get back from this random two-week business trip or whatever, and the first thing you do is throw some party for a bunch of people you probably haven't even spoken to outside of work or something, and you can't even give me a hug—are you scared that I'm gonna break your arm again? Or maybe a leg? Is that what this is?!"

    There wasn't any going back now. It wasn't just about Percy avoiding him anymore, but about everything that's been happening lately with him too. For both of them to have gone to hell and back together, and yet only one of them seemed to cave in under all of the stress... Leon sometimes made himself sick with guilt knowing that part of him wished something was wrong with his boyfriend, something that kept him up at night as it did with him. With his voice rising over the distant music and the frustration on his face like vivid colors on a canvas, Leon closed the distance between him and Percy once more, pinning him against the wall of his home with his good arm—the booze smelled especially pungent from here.

    "Is it my face? Should I cut my hair short again? Are you having second thoughts about me? What is it!"



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    Post by Percy 8th April 2021, 10:29 pm

    Here it came. Even with knowing it was coming, he still flinched. "No! No, no...that's not..." he started, a hiccup interrupting his explanation for a moment before he could continue. His mind was racing faster than his mouth could keep up with, but he had to try and set Leon straight! He had the wrong idea. "Remember...I planned this way b'fore all that. Valem...Valentine's day? It jus' happened this way on accident." Percy was never a particularly eloquent man with any sense of social charm, but it was evident that the alcohol was making it ten times worse. It was like he could think what he wanted to say, but it was coming out slow and confusing. Even as he slurred, his brow puckered in frustration. Was he making any sense? This was really important. "I'm not scared you're gonna do somethin' like before anymore. I jus...ah...I..." He what? The only explanation was the truth, which was the whole point of his argument. He didn't want to tell the truth. What was a lie that was less bad than the truth?

    While he struggled to come up with a lie that wouldn't cost him the most important person in his life, one he already felt like he was losing along with everything else that was suddenly crumbling away, Leon closed in on him before he could notice and try to dodge. Leon was moving his considerably lighter frame back against the wall he'd escaped. He was pinned. Dropping his glass, both hands rose to press Leon's chest. It'd been intended as a shove, yet he didn't possess the strength to do such a simple thing, something an expert martial artist should be able to do. Would he notice the narrowness of his neck and the more pronounced collarbone, or would the coat pad it? Would he see that the boyish roundness in his cheeks was gone, or that his jawline was sharper? The fear on his face only intensified. Too close, it was going off like alarms in his head. "It's not like that, Leon! How could you- No second thoughts! You mean a lot- It's not your face or hair-" his panicked words popped out of his mouth faster than he could properly control. His voice trembled and cracked.

    "P-Please," he begged, lowering his head and twisting his hands into the shirt of the man he both wanted far away from him and so close that there was no difference between them. "I just...can't let you t-touch me," he muttered, unable to think of anything useful. Drunk Percy was always more honest, Leon had said that once. He was too drunk and too upset to lie.

    If Leon had been wanting something to be wrong with his boyfriend, he was getting his wish. Percy's delusional world, the one where he was the strong one that could hold Leon up, the one where he'd come out of the war with just one flesh wound and a new perspective on life, was shattering. His mind couldn't create new behaviors fast enough to keep the cold reality away anymore. It couldn't make the nausea go away. His body was weakened and vulnerable and couldn't keep it up. "...Something's wrong with me... not you.. can you be p-patient?" Percy asked, his voice huffing out between panting breaths.

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    Post by Leon Hoffman 8th April 2021, 11:45 pm



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    His glass had fallen and his hands dug into Leon's shirt, voice trembling and words fumbling over one another—something Leon hadn't seen for months now. The world became a dark place once they took that flight to Bellum, with little light to spare. But for the first time since they returned home, it actually felt like he was seeing a glimpse of the man he actually knew, even if it was in the middle of a drunken argument. However, even though it finally felt like he was actually onto something, Leon still couldn't tell what was wrong or why all of this was happening.

    "I have, Percy! I've tried to be patient all this time, but do you have any idea how this feels? Isn't this the sort of thing you should be talking to me about? I miss you like crazy and it's really starting to stress me the hell out! So, just..." Leon could feel his expression scrunch up as he looked at Percy, feeling a sigh creep out of his lungs. He had only scraped the tip of the iceberg as far as his true feelings went, but maybe it was time to make up. Leon was pretty collected most times, but whenever he got upset, it got intense. But every time he did, he'd always regret it a little. After all, he could only imagine what he looked like when he was cornering Percy like this.

    His words trailing off, Leon took his prosthetic hand and let it cup around Percy's cheek, no matter how he tried to avoid it. He wanted to touch him without being pushed away for once, but even now, it... felt off?

    "Hey..." Leon paused, his exasperation suddenly evaporating as he let his metal fingers gingerly cup around Percy's cheeks. Normally it'd be a moment of longing and affection, but there was nothing but this look of bewilderment in his eyes, like he was touching something foreign and weird. He almost didn't say anything for a second until he took his other hand to cup the other cheek, forcing Percy to look up. "Did you... get thinner?"


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    Post by Percy 9th April 2021, 3:47 am

    As Percy was forced to look up at his lover, his expression was one of utter misery. It was happening. Unavoidable. Part of him was relieved that he didn't have to hide it anymore, but then why did it seem like there wasn't enough air? If his heart beat any faster, he was sure it'd burst from his chest. Nodding to Leon's question, one of his hands unclenched from Leon's shirt to press against his stomach. "I d-didn' want you t' see," he stammered, both the stutter and his revelations unable to stop now that he'd started. The dam was breaking loose. As he stared up into Leon's bewildered face, he could feel his good eye starting to prickle and fill with moisture. His other hand left Leon's shirt as well so he could shrug out of the sport coat, thinking maybe cooling himself off would help him get some air. As it fell to the ground, his smaller frame was revealed more properly. He irritably tugged at the collar of his shirt.

    "I'm s-sorry, I didn' wanna...worry you," Percy admitted, pressing all of his lighter weight back against his house while his cheeks sat heavily in Leon's hands. He couldn't tell if the pounding he heard so loudly was his own heart or the beat coming from within the house. "Ev'rything was f-fine. I just can't k-keep anything down since we came back," the two-toned man said, feeling the alcohol twisting in his stomach even now. Who knew how long that'd stay down, especially now that he was upset and well on his way to a panic attack. Percy had to press his lips together, using the last of his willpower to keep the dam holding his words back in one piece. Was Leon right about being able to talk to him about this? It was cracking, just about to break. Percy was about to break. All his new behaviors and valiant attempts to fix all his flaws and quirks and avoid anything that reminded him of himself were melting away. His mind's protective delusions were being destroyed, one by one. Could Leon handle it if all the stuff he had repressed these past few months came rushing out?

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