Rei hadn't been feeling well since it all happened...
She was constantly overwhelmed by so many emotions for no reason whatsoever, she was running into walls she couldn't see. she struggled tremendously to do things even a simple things a child could do better than she could. she hated to admit it... she was practically handicapped.
At her home where she lived with Neyvahn, they had a few training dummies in their back yard. she had already dropped a glass bowl and had gotten another one, misjudged the distance causing her cereal and milk to spill all over the counter. While she was cleaning it up, she watched as Neyvahn walked by with his usual cup of lemonade iced tea. She was hoping he'd help her out...but he didn't even seem to glance at her. What did she expect? he always acted this way. He was... never there for her, she always took care of herself if she was sick, or usually if something happened he'd take a job and be gone for a few days to a week. The thought of it all made her heart wrench, and she was eventually able to clean it up with much difficulty using her one arm and terrible vision.
After she had finally cleaned up her mess, Rei decided it would be nice to go outside to get her emotions out on the dummies. she stood in front of one of them, curling her left hand into a fist, and with all the raging emotions going on inside of her she let it fly.
she hit nothing.
nothing, nothing at all. she was stunned... it was just one punch! even a child could punch a bag full of sand!
Rei scoffed in her disbelief... she could do it. she was better than this... wasn't she? she drew back her fist again and threw it forward, the force of it going through thin air made her spin around in a circle. her disbelief, anger, and self doubt were all fighting within her almost to the extreme. "its not true!" she said quietly, before looking up again and throwing another kick at the dummy. its as if it was a phantom and her attempts to hit it were just going right through. "ITS NOT TRUE!" she screamed, she was way too far away from it... but to her it looked so close. her punches were awkward thanks to her less dominant arm who was getting used to being alone. she kicked and punched at the stationary sack with no luck whatsoever. by this point, she had been out there for at least two hours, trying her hardest to hit it. she couldn't hold it back any longer, she let dears stream down from her eye. she stood there sniffling, before she dropped to her knees. "I-I...cant even.." she wiped her face using her arm, wrapping her arm around herself for comfort. this was pathetic... she had always been pathetic! she was even before these injuries, she had never EVER in her life, managed to walk away from an even matched fight. but why? all these other mages in the guild were so strong, and yet she couldn't even pour herself a bowl of cereal properly. what was wrong with her? why? WHY? WHY!?
Rei sat in the grass in complete and utter inner turmoil with herself, when she heard footsteps on the porch..